I Stopped Dating.

I've taken a break from dating altogether, three - to - five months to be exact. This process has been a lesson. Teaching me how to confront my fears of rejection, my failures and giving myself an assessment, not what I want to attract, but to what I need to become before I'm worthy of receiving attraction.

Eliminating the idea of dating has exposed an aspect of myself that I never realized had power in my life. Beyond the scope of financial significance, giving up dating has created a system where regret is no longer an influence. Prior to this, my confidence came from the approval of others, it came from the outside eyes and nameless faces.

Giving myself time to enjoy my own company is teaching me a new avenue of happiness. I feel free of judgement. I used to feel judged if I walked around the city by myself, or if I went to see a movie by myself. I felt as if I was seen as lonely, or I felt as if my trips were directionless. That's simply not the case anymore.

I'm learning that there's a sense of happiness in these moments of spontaneity. I've never had that before. Not only do I have it now, but I'm truly enjoying it.

Before I began this process, my dating experiences weren't directionless. There was temporary happiness involved and sometimes the goal was to get some ass. But that process never led anywhere, so I simply want to see where this road takes me.

I can honestly say within this process I'm learning to find something new within myself.

Lets see what I learn in the next month.